Saturday, March 31, 2018

What Were The Disciples Thinking?

I often think about the disciples and their relationship with Jesus. Three years of following, but not fully understanding. I think about how fortunate they were to sit and listen to Jesus, day after day, month after month and year after year. How very lucky for them.

And yet they did not fully grasp the significance. They did seem to follow Him immediately, but time and time again He told them what was going to transpire and they did not seem to grasp it. But those final days before and after the resurrection my heart aches for them.


I have always empathized with Peter. Over and over he throws himself at Jesus with all of his impulsiveness. Only for Jesus to clarify things for him. Not really scolding but letting Peter know the truth of the matter. I actually have a future book outlined about this. The Curse Of Being A Peter. God ends up using Peter, flaws and all to build His church. I believe it is an example to all of us how God will use us for His purposes if we submit to Him.

 Mark 14:37 says, "And He came and found them sleeping, and Jesus said to Peter, 'Simon are you asleep? Could you not keep watch for one hour?" Wow! Ouch! Gethsemane grabs our heart, Jesus knowing what is to come but the disciples in their humanity not really comprehending.

And after the crucifixion, how did they feel then? I can't help but wonder. I am thinking they were beyond sorrowful.

The Resurrection...That glorious morning when they discover that Jesus Christ has risen! And things start making sense. Not to all of them at first but during those next few weeks. John 20:31 tells us "but these have been written that you may believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God; and that by believing you may have life in His name."


The disciples would be persecuted, crucified, and many stoned to death, but they went on to spread the news. The Good News of the gospel. I think it would be amazing to lead so many to Christ as the disciples did. They had many trials and emotions during their service in following Christ. We may not have Jesus in physical form but God has given us His Word, The Bible, that we can study and get to know Him on a more intimate level. Pray for God to lead you to a closer walk so that you too can have that close relationship. Start with just five minutes a day. I promise if you are sincere in your heart in your desire for Him that He will guide you.

Have a wonderful Resurrection Day!

"Christ was raised up from the dead by the glory of the Father, even so we also should walk in newness of life." Romans 6:4

Monday, March 19, 2018

Use Your Pain For Inspiration

Do you consider why you are on the path you have been given? Why have you endured the painful things life has thrown at you? Is there any reason? Is there hope? Is there truly the ability to heal, to forgive?


I went to see the new movie I Can Only Imagine tonight. By myself. With a very crowded theatre and lots of noisy movie goers visiting with close friends and loved ones. I knew it was about the three time platinum song by Mercy Me of the same name. I had not really known the story behind the song.

I do now.

I am so amazed by some similarities in my own life. Many things were different but the outcome and conflict was similar. My moma never beat me. My dad never left us. But my dad died and my mom was a more silent abuser. Scars upon scars, hidden down deep, covered but not forgotten.

A hope in Jesus and moving forward with His love but still harboring hurts within, to later surface. God wants us to have total healing. One cannot fully serve without dealing with whatever is buried deep within our hearts and minds. He is a pure and holy God. He must have all of us not some superficial mask that covers what is on the inside. He can still use us but to be used by Him to the full potential of His majestic plan we need to deal...with it all...with long ago pain...unforgiveness...and even sometimes current issues.

In the movie his dad says, "If God can forgive anything, why can't you forgive me?" Bart says, "God can forgive anything but I can't forgive you". Pain is so very hard to overcome. Sometimes I think in my own life since I felt no real anger toward my mom that everything was fine. Not so. Hidden way down deep I still felt hurt in my heart.

We also must believe God can change people. Miraculously. Totally. I saw this in my moma. She became a different person. It was hard for me to believe at first...to accept. That is SO wrong. I should always rejoice in someone changing their life.

One of the lines in the movie that caught my full attention was, "use that pain for inspiration". That is the key. For ALL of us. Not just a songwriter. Or me writing a book but in whatever our passion is and how God wants to use ALL of us.

My book Not Really A Princess it took a long time to write. It was healing. My desire has always been that somehow it would give all of you hope when hard things happen. That you too can overcome anything. Having seen this movie tonight I think that goes a step further...Follow Your Own Dream. You have all been designed for something special. Don't settle, don't be complacent, go and follow your heart. Who knows what will happen.


Thursday, March 15, 2018

Let Your Heart Take Courage

"A Psalm of Fearless Trust in God"~ That is the heading for Psalm 27 in my Bible.


I do not consider myself fearless. I despair and fret over things. I am not by nature a big worrier but I still have much self doubt and am always feeling hurt by things in life. I am definitely a sensitive person which can be good or bad. However, God created me that way for a purpose.

I am thinking back over my whole book journey. The first reflections are of the life I have been given, the trials and the pain, and why I chose to write a book to begin with. Not really feeling qualified but feeling God wanted me to tell my story to give others hope.

Hope in Him.

Then I consider what gives me joy. True joy. From the inside out. What do I do when i am despairing? I look to the Word. I flip through my Bible for certain passages that calm my heart. Maybe they are ones that I have underlined or maybe they are ones I remember that gave me hope in the past.

This was not always the case. It is so easy to just be frustrated or immediately share with a friend. That may temporarily help but it does not give you joy. Or peace.

Psalm 27 starts with "The Lord is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear?" Love this. I know the song to this and often sing it. The Psalm continues in verse 4, "One thing I have asked from the LORD, that I shall seek: That I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, To behold the beauty of the LORD." These verses do not really allow me to feel sad but give me that extra boost to move past overwhelming heartache.

It ends in verse 14 with, "Wait for the LORD; Be Strong and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the LORD."

I pray for all of you reading this today that you may cling to God's Word. I pray He directs you to those perfect verses that give you hope. I would love to hear your favorite passage.

Let your heart take courage.


Saturday, March 3, 2018

We Are All Showmen

Last Friday night my husband and I went to the movie The Greatest Showman. I was so excited. We have not been to a movie for almost five months. Dinner and a movie! Woohoo!

So many of my friends had said how they loved the movie and I am thankful my husband chose that one, even though I am sure it may not have been his first choice. Thank you Craig!


One of the themes that kept repeating itself was to push on. P. T. Barnum would feel defeated and even lose everything but then would get a new idea or take a new risk and push on to go forward. He refused to become engulfed in self-pity and defeat.

I also saw how his past shaped him. How his life as a young person was part of why he did this. I was reminded how everyone has a past that can pull us under, OR motivate us to move on with life.

In my book Not Really A Princess, one of the main purposes for writing was to encourage others to find hope, continue on and to show others that they too can share their stories. We all have hard times, struggles, trials but we can help others to find hope amidst their times of hardship so they can find true joy.

One of my favorite Bible passages through the years has been from Philippians 3:13-14. "Brethren, I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet; but this one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead. I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus."

We must move forward.

God promises us over and over in His Word that He will strengthen us and hold us close in trying times. So we can be His Greatest Showmen.


Thursday, March 1, 2018

The Release Date Is Finally Here!

Today is March 1, 2018! Last June I was told March 1st was my "release date" for my book Not Really A Princess. And that my publish date was going to be April 1st. I actually had no idea what a release date was until recently. And I probably still don't fully understand.

I have recently been told that all of YOU who have pre-ordered my book will soon receive your copies because it has been "released" from the distribution centers. The publish date is when you can go to stores and find it.

I received copies of my book when the printing was complete. Those were shipped to me and the rest were sent to the distribution centers. From the distribution centers they will be sent to various bookstores around the country and to all of you who have pre-ordered. I am fortunate that my book is being distributed by Ingram, the largest book distributer in the world.

Thank you so much to all of you who have ordered!


Many of you have shared about how the book has blessed you. So if you enjoyed the book and would like to do a review please do so. I would love the feedback! If you have bought it off Amazon then you do the review on Amazon, or if you have bought from Barnes and Noble then do the review on their site. You may also leave a review on my facebook page ~ Nicki Corinne White.  Thank you all so very much.

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